About Doris Wittmann

Hi, my name is Doris. I live in Padstow, south western suburb of Sydney, Australia with my husband and two teenage children.

To tell you about me… I want to ask which one of me, for I have changed so much.

I feel as though I have lived in a fog for most of my early life, sort of asleep. I recall very little of my childhood and can recall clearly wanting to disappear.

I grew up in an era where adults ruled! Bigger meant stronger and as a child I had no voice, opinion or choice of what I wanted. I grew up with violence and abuse; my father ruled everything I did from food, clothes, friends and even the radio station that I listened to.

Slowly I retreated from the pain by withdrawing my life energy. I floated off to other planes whilst my poor body and mind endured the barrage. I became like a shadow of me, losing my will and getting by, just doing what I had to in order to survive.

When I was about 14 my dad was at his worst and chased my whole family with two sawn off shotguns whilst we hid in the bushes (we lived on 10 acres) and when the police arrived he shot himself in the head.

I thought it was all over and I was finally free! How wrong I was…it was just the beginning. I had to learn to live again. I was like a disabled person, all but my survival instinct had shut off and so began my journey to wake up, come home and begin to live my life again!

I tell very few people about my childhood as I do not wish to be seen as a victim. I tell it here so that you can see how much it is possible to change your life.

I survived, floating along with life until I had children. You just cannot raise children without being present, well mine anyway…they created havoc until I realized that I could stay in these patterns and perpetuate them or make a big choice to change.

Here began my awakening, my healing path, leading to today. Many books, courses, treatments, experiences and practitioners later. I am heartened through the many glorious and talented people that I’ve met and had the opportunity to learn from.

I recall the first time I felt energy rushing through my hands into another person at college.

I awoke one night with a strange sensation in my chest to find “spirit” chiseling away a big granite stone layer from around my heart.

I picked up a book and a vision of a massively important past life unfolded before my eyes like a movie and within a few breaths I understood my reluctance to “own my self (power)”

I discovered that I hated ‘meditation’ (too many lifetime on my knees in prayer I suspect!) yet could’ tune in’ or find stillness through breathing consciously.

In this way I traveled to my pre Earth home, the Star Sirius and met with my mother again after such a long time, finally now, understanding a lifetime of feeling like an alien, waiting to be allowed home. I saw a vision of our people leaving for Earth, the portal open, our community of loved ones standing silently on the hill behind us. The emotion: love, honour and a deep pride in the value of our mission weaves its way to greet us on our departure.

I realized that wherever I was, I was home. At the core of me is the energy of all that is, the divine God self.

My drawing skills developed when I was asked to fill in for an aura photographer at a spiritual fair and I said yes! (Through the fear!)

I bought a beautiful set of soft pastel crayons that inspired me to play and express through colour. I love the feel of the powdery colours as I smooth them onto the textured paper. Finally I could draw the amazing visions that come to me! The messages and the energetic power in them is awesome and I experienced greater self awareness, the freedom of expression and many insights through my visions and my drawings.

Drawing & painting showed me how to be present to life. When I allowed myself the freedom, that I am a wonderful creator. When I draw I am all of ME, I feel my core strength build, my energy threads weave into the web of life……Earth, sun, stars and all that is. I know that I am a part of God/Goddess the supreme creator……all is well. I know deeply that I belong here. I came to be an integral part of the awakening process for myself and Humanity.

We are truly in the age of enlightenment; the energy of Earth is constantly raised through our own personal growth, as each of us awaken and stand in our fullest truth and awareness, we shall learn to honour and love all that is. We shall live ever more fully in the light.

I personally had no concept of just how that may feel. Gautama Buddha came to me one evening in the safe space of a sacred gathering. He saw that I had forgotten and gently and lovingly moved into my energy field. He allowed me to experience the most inexpressible tranquility, love and joy, through him, with him and in him I experienced my self. Tears of love and joy roll from my eyes with gratitude as I recall this and I say to you, no matter how your life is now, you have no idea of just how good it can get. I’m heading there now!

Doris

When I’m done, I hope that the simplicity of this quote
shall sum up my life:

My life is my message.
- Mahatma Ghandi